"+[t]he forev[a] lonely [a]nd tarde[d] gal...+"

2011-04-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hi blog miss you much~
Just having the urge and feel to type down something here today.

People who have been my friends since secondary school may know that my friendship has not always been the best. Being betrayed by 2 of my best friends during secondary 2 was definitely not the thing anyone of you would want to experience. The feeling of betrayal was nasty. It was devastating. It was hurting. It was every single nasty feelings that you could think and feel of.

I managed to walk out from the darkest day. I made new friends which i thought wouldn't betray me or turn their backs on me. I thought they would be different. I thought they could accept me for who i am. I thought they would be my real friends. But i was wrong. The same thing happened. It was me, all alone again. It was even more devastating. It was like shit.

Not until i met Silvana, i started believing that friendship still exist. She's still the best of the best even till now. But that doesn't mean i trusted everyone. I still have the fear of being betrayed again. This was the thing which had been haunting my dreams for the past few years. Yes, it had a great impact on me. I'm afraid of losing anymore friends. I'm afraid of being stranded alone once again. I'm afraid of having to face the same thing all over again.

Ever since, every time when i make new friends, deep in my heart, i wish that they could be with me forever. I cherish them a lot and no one could tell how much they meant to me. I'm afraid i would lose them again like what i did twice in the past. So sometimes i tend to think too much which lead to negative thoughts and i would be afraid all over again.

But anyway, thanks to all those people who betrayed me years ago. Without the betrayals, i wouldn't know what are real friends and what are true friends. I believe that i have friends who are far better than yours now because they are the one who will accompany me for the rest of my life. Furthermore, without the betrayals, i wouldn't have met my TRUE friends.

Bye peeps :)

2011-02-15T21:38:00.001+08:00

Happy belated Valentine's Day to all.
Received a few belated valentine's gifts today.

Ever felt that the whole world is against you?
Ever did something which cant be mended?

Some apologies are never enough.
Some words are never meant to be mean.
Some things were never meant to happen.
Some wounds could never be healed.
Some people are never meant to be yours.

Words can kill people.
Words can heal people.
Words can hurt people.
Words can be meant a thousand things.
But when some words really hits you right through the heart, that's it.

Some mistakes can be forgiven.
Some mistakes are meant to be left alone and allow time to forget it.
Some mistakes can never be forgiven.

Wounds can be healed but it takes time.
However some wounds were meant to be there forever.

When i say i'm okay, it doesn't mean that i really am.
When i say let's forget it, it doesn't mean that i've really forget it.
When i say anything which doesn't really seems to fit, yes, it doesn't fit at all and it never will.

2011-01-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Very sorry for the dead blog!
No time to update and don't feel like updating!
Well, my laptop now a bit sot sot. Yesterday a fujitsu guy came my house to change my hardware. Saw my laptop being dismanted into pieces. Heart pain. And in the end the hardware he brought is a spoilt one. =.=
So he say he will come another day. Hmmm....
That's all for today i think.
Do continue visiting my blog! =))

OH YAH! My banc watch is arriving soon from Korea <3333<3333
*ANTICIPATES*
*WINKS WINKS*

2010-12-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the dead blog!
Merry Christmas everyone!
Make a wish :D
Below are some photos of my 17th birthday! Enjoy!

Went out with the girls last wednesday.! Went to eat small steam boat.

And then we went to KBOX for singing of course! And the girls gave me an advance surprise birthday celebration!! I'm so damn touched! See my tears! They're coming out alr! They baked this cake themselves! Very NICE!!!

On the actual day of my birthday! Father ordered a cake for me.Yes! Micky and Minnie! with the words "JIAXIN HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY" written!

And lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

That's all guys :DD

Will be going Malaysia next week!

2010-11-21T14:22:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the dead blog.
Although it's seems dead,I won't close my blog don't worry.
Been quite busy these few weeks.
Exams are coming soon.I certainly don't have the time to blog every single day. I won't , even if I have the time. Lol.
So. I spent my whole sunday morning watching the vampire's diary. Nice!
And I seriously should stop day dreaming about my future. LOL. You would be fascinated if any one of you are mind readers. Lol.
Alright. That's all about it.
Tata guys!

Sent from my iPod.

A'famosa trip

2010-11-07T20:11:00.003+08:00

Belated Happy Deepavali to all.
Went to Malaysia for the past 2 days with a few friends of my dad. Just came back in the afternoon today.
A'famosa resort was our destination this time. It was a very very very big piece of land with over 70 villas and a few condominiums. A very big piece of land for golf too. It was orginally built for purchases by people but couldn't be sold out. So, it turned into a holiday villa for tourists.
There's a big water world, animal safari and cowboy town in it. There's also a place for gun shooting and so on. And the rest of the land is redundant. So big a piece of land and what they got in it only occupies a mere 3/5 of the whole space. What about the remaining 2/5? Its totally useless. Only filled with grasses which was pretty obvious that it lacked of cutting for at least a few months. The place i love most is the golf course. The grasses are evenly cut, smooth, without even a single flaw.

The first day when we reached there we went to eat in a small town just beside the resort, 10 mins drive. Came back in the evening and we went to cowboy town. Nothing much to see actually but there's a firework display :)
Second day we drove to Melaka Zoo. Its actually nothing as compared to Singapore Zoo but it's considered 'good' in Malaysia.

Photos are up:)

that's all guys:)

2010-10-11T12:15:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since i posted something. I'm back~
Holiday can never be more boring. Totally nothing to do.
Went out with friends last thursday to bugis. Ate pastamania and took neoprints. That's all.
The plan of going to japan or taiwan this holiday has failed. Daddy is too busy with his work. Cant take any days off. SIAN ARH!!
Mummy went to shanghai for the past few weeks. Just came back last week.
Looking at the photos she took, Shang hai world expo was great! I'll upload some later :D
So grandfather said that he's taking our family to hong kong next year June~~~~~~~ WAHAHA!
This time i hope that we can REALLY go. He's going there on a short business trip so he say he can take us along!!!!
He say we will go to hong kong, then macau then guang zhou~~
Most importantly, he's bringing us to HONG KONG DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 香港迪斯尼乐园！！！
And second most important place he's bringing us to is Macau's VENICE SANDS CASINO!!!!!!! 金沙威尼斯！！！
He say we will be staying in the 6 stars hotel which is of course venice hotel!
AH so looking forward to it!!
Photos :D

the inside of UK's

the outside of UK's

china's

taiwan's. they say it looks like a toilet bowl from above.

the inside of norway's

turkey's

the building beside the red one is singapore's

that's all peeps :D

the kbox

2010-09-19T11:22:00.001+08:00

yoohoo~
I'm back with posting some new stuffs!
Well, went kbox with rach, hs and kardya this wednesday. Quite fun~
Had lunch at astons again. I love the food there.
Then went orchard cineleisure for k box session.
Photos are up~~

Will be going genting next tuesday - AGAIN.....

This time without mum. Mummy going shanghai with grandma and pa to visit world expo T.T

I'm damn jealous... I wanted to go! But mum say she cant leave my bro with my dad alone. So she say its better if im at home to look after them. wth?!

But she say i can go overseas next year. *cross my finger........*

Going to buy my ipod touch with kardya on monday~~~~~ She will have her braces off by then.

food...

2010-09-04T13:51:00.000+08:00

This morning i was woken up by dad at 7.55am ! It was so irritating. It's a saturday morning!!!!!!
I just dont understand how come my dad can sleep at 1am and wakes up at 7am. Only 6 pathetic hours of sleep.
But well, i woke up, of course, because he said he's bringing us to the old coffee shop at our old block for breakfast!!!
I seriously miss the food there <3
I always order my all time favourite 鱼肉粗米粉 without fail! So no doubt for today!
Haven't been there for almost 2 years plus. Surprisingly, the aunty at the stall still recognises me!
She knows that i love her stall~
And daddy also bought our favourite dim sum~
AH! Such a nice breakfast!

Just now i ate chicken nugget with mcdonald's curry sauce for lunch.
And i happen to thought of me, eating Mcdonalds when i was still a kid.
Whenever dad brings me to Mcdonalds, I would always order the Happy Meal without fail. So it comes with a toy and a set of meal. And for the meal, i always stick to McNugget, Filet o fish and cheese burger.
McNugget with curry sauce, nice!
Filet o fish with tomato sauce, nice! I still remember the filet o fish at that time was wrapped using a blue wrapping paper. Now it comes with a paper box.
Cheese burger was my least favourite among the 3 but i still like it! Double cheese burger is my favourite now!
Haha! So much about food today!
Okay, that's all guys! All the best for those taking exam and happy holiday to those who're having holiday next week!

Kardya's 18th birthday.

2010-08-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

So, we celebrated Kardya's birthday yesterday in advance. Tomorrow is really her birthday.
Me, rachel and HS planned this long long ago. Like, 2 months in advance? Yeah.
So we didnt tell her anything about this.
Yesterday we met in school for ITB project in the morning. And we suggested to her we go suntec eat lunch but its actually for celebrating her birthday.
I baked a cake for her (well, it doesnt look like a cake though but it is really a cake!)
Rahel bought her one can of candy.
We ate at Anstons in suntec.
Very nice and quite cheap.
And TADA~

our mushroom soup <3

my teriyaki chicken with mash potato and onion rings <3

and i am so proud to say that i baked this cake! xD

we just found out that my candle wont lit up. so we asked kardya to blow match stick !

i know its nice XD really, its quite nice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARDYA~

third and fourth day in tioman

2010-08-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

Day 3
The third day in tioman was free and easy. Went for breakfast in the morning. Walked around the whole island again and again. There's really nothing to do there.
The others went for a tioman island round trip which cost RM95 and called us to go. Siao arh. So ex lahh... We didnt go. So we stayed in the resort and rot...
For lunch we called our own food. Cost us around RM80 in total. Food was still okay...
Went back our room to play card games until dinner... yeah, its boring...
Dinner time ate pizza and dumplings and cup noodles and milo. Sleep!

Day 4

The last day. Went for our last breakfast in tioman. Packed up and left our room at 10am.

And the damn boat only comes at 2pm in the afternoon. DANG!

4 hrs of waiting. So we watched SUJU on peiying's PSP. Super funny. Got us all entertained.

For lunch we bought ram-ni (i think its like that) and french fries. Quite nice~

Due to the rain and large current, the boat shaked like mad. I was going to throw up on board. In the end i went to the back of the boat and stood there for half an hour and finally we reached tanjong gemok! 3hrs bus ride to singapore and dad fetched me from newton.

Home sweet home!

that's all guys =) more photos on fb!

first and second day in tioman

2010-08-22T17:01:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone, im back from tioman, finally.
I'll start talking from my first day there.

Day 1
Woke up at 4.10 in the morning to get ready. HS hired a cab and came to fetch me at pioneer mall. Quite scary alone. Then we went to fetch peiying then kardya. Reached orchard road quite early. Kardya bought mcdonalds for breakfast. Bus left at 6.30am and headed for tanjong gemok. 3 hrs. Kardya and i were the only one talking on the bus non stop!
Board the boat going to tioman. 2 hrs boat ride. sian.....
And finally, we reached tioman~ it's not so nice after all. Not as good as i think it would be. Don't understand why it's a tourist attraction. Really, there's nothing much there......
Okay, so we went to our room. It was super super small... with 1 big bed and 2 small beds.... And the first thing i did was to see the bathroom. Still okay... Not as bad as i think it would be. It smells okay too.
Here's the thing. Bugs were everywhere... You can find lizards, mosquitoes, small red ants, houseflies and even millipede...... Yes, yucks....... For the whole time there, HS was killing and killing bugs with the resort tissue box. Imagine how..... And there's once where this millipede just drop down from the ceiling after i sprayed insecticides on it. We screamed and jump onto the bed... LOL.
So nothing much about the first day. Night observations and sleep~

Day 2

Woke up 8am in the morning. Some people went to snorkle. We stayed on land. Walked around the island the whole morning. Then went back room play cards. Ate lunch. Went trekking at 3pm in the afternoon. Quite fun but injured my left hand. Came back around 5pm. Bath then went for dinner. No night obervations that day because the clouds were dominating the sky. Cant see a single stars. That's all for day 2.

that's all guys. i'll continue day 3 and 4 tomorrow =)

yet another outing!

2010-08-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! Hope everyone is having a great YOG break studying.
I'm having a great time doing POA, reading econs and FOM these few days, NOT.
3 more papers to do for POA. Not doing so well so far!
Cut my hair on tuesday. Quite short now!
Wednesday went out with girls. Swensens, kbox then neoprint! yay~ photos are up :)

Went school today for focus discussion regarding a social media webpage which sp is going to come up with for students. Asked us for our opinion about how the webpage should be formatted etc. And only 8 students are chosen from each school in sp for this discussion. And the whole discussion was being video-ed down =.= At the end of the session they gave us each a $10 Borders voucher...hehehe...
That's all guys! :) Few more days to tioman trip.

the last week.

2010-08-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Happy holiday!
Am having a 3 weeks YOG break currently. YOG jiayou! So looking forward to watch gymnastic. I like gymnastic, a lot.
3 weeks of break. Got to start my revision fast. Exams are 4 weeks away. Looks like there isnt much time left for me to play. *HAIS*
Next week is fully packed. Tuesday have to go to Novena collect my new passport for tioman. Because the immgration person say my old passport photo dont look like me anymore. Damn. It still does look like me. Damn. Now i have to waste my money to take MRT all the way to Novena. Damn. Cant they like, mail it to me or like, send it to my doorstep? Why must i still go down personally?!
Wednesday going KBOX with the girls! And swensens ice cream buffet with them!
Thursday and friday study~ Have to start packing my bag for tioman during the weekend. Will be going back to work on sunday. Out of so many days, sunday will be the only day im gonna work.
And im off to tioman next next tuesday~ So happy. First time travelling overseas with friends. Coming back on friday evening. 4 days 3 nights~
Last week of the break have is purely for revisions and projects. And for study week, study!

One thing i really dont understand. Why are SOME people so obsessed with working? Seriously, what's so fancy about working? You have loads of time to work for the rest of your life after you graduate.

And one more thing i'm quite irritated about. If you like a person, yes, you love to stare and look at that person. But please, please do it naturally. It will be best if you dont look at that person but i know its totally impossible. And it really feels weird being looked at. Act like a guy if you are a guy. Simple saying you should totally be a guy when you are a guy. Its just that, dont be 'not-very-guy'... that's it.

photos to entertain all of you.

that's all guys =)

long lost post.

2010-07-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. I'm back, finally.
Was not in a very good mood last weekend. Main reason was because of that 'tiger'.
Well, i ought to tell all of you who is 'tiger', if not i will be babbling about this person and make everyone blur.
He is our FOM lecturer and our NEW tutor. And his nick name is 'tiger', obviously. His nick was not originated by us. He like to call himself tiger, actually, because he love tiger woods,obviously, (who the hell would call themselves by the name of tiger?).
And basically, the story is simple. We hate him. A very nice 3 words. We hate him. In fact the whole DAC hate him. First reason, he is boring. Second reason, he is insane when it comes to teaching. He will be damn fast or damn slow. Third reason, we just hate him.
Last friday was our FOM presentation CA2. Mr Alex Cheng left us, for another job. We hope everything goes well for him. We miss him loads.
So, Tiger was our new tutor. And a stupid one. He's just pure stupid. He's insane. Well, for a non-insane teacher, they will listen to you. They will hear what you are saying. They wont cut you off your speech. They wont stare at you with that stupid expression. They HEAR. They LISTEN. AND THEY RESPECT. For tiger, he's none of the above. He can cut into your speech when you are presenting. AND HE CAN EVEN SAY THAT HE DONT LIKE YOUR PRESENTATION. WHAT THE FUCK YOU TELL ME. Who the hell is he?! He's totally insane. HELLO~ its OUR presentation. You just have to shut the fuck up and put your butt on the chair and listen to us. We dont need any comments from you. You are... you are... you are so... so... omg. You how old already?! You dont even know the basics of respecting others. And don't you think of having our respect if you dont show us your respect.
Right, i shall stop wasting my time scolding you.

YOG holiday coming soon. One week away. Henry sms-ed. Asked me my time slot for working. I dont feel like working actually. But i am feeling bad for not turning up for work for almost 2 months alr. So, i gave him 3 days of my time. Back to work but i will change my mind. Worst come to worst, quit! No mood to work alr.
Going tioman on the second week of YOG break. I'll take care of myself, hopefully. Mummy keep on asking me if im okay going alone. Daddy keep on convincing her that im alr an 'almost-grown-up' so its okay. So i just kept quiet. But mummy keep on asking whether its safe. And daddy keep on convincing her that it is. And mummy keep on telling me to take care of myself. And daddy keep on telling her to keep quiet. LOL~
Mummy still treat me as a small little kid, obviously, but i like it. Daddy treat me as his 'grown-up-little-girl'. He always have faith in me. He believe in everything i do. Mummy wont let me out of her embrace. She care for my everything. The food i eat, the clothes i wear, the shoe i wore, and even the blanket i use. She will buy me my fav food. Wash my blanket every week without fail. When buying things for me, she will always take a photo of it and MMS to me. If i like it, she will buy it. If i dont like it, she will 'forget it'. Such interesting parents~

Well well well, im off~ bye peeps! No photos this week. Its on fb! :)

departure...

2010-07-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. this week sucks.
Well, Mr Alex cheng is really leaving us. He's leaving SP. We're taken over by a humman tiger and i hate the tiger.
Depressed.
Held a farewell party for Mr Alex. Ordered pizza and make a book for him which contains all our wishes and memories.
Sad...
Here are some photos taken.

the last class photo with him.

well, that's all for this week. bye peeps =)

i must act on. continue to act on.

im already half way through and doing pretty good.

its tired and unconvincing. but i must continue.

its the only way to survive.

i will continue...

the week of hell...

2010-07-10T18:59:00.000+08:00

what can i say? this week was really devastating.
this week was really really bad.
First, FOM teacher will be leaaving us soon. next week will be his last week.
Second, have to hand up 1000 words BC proposal next week.
Third, heard a lot of tragedies this week. shall not mention it anymore.

anticipating for next week? i doubt so.
nothing more to say.
finally done with the 1000 words BC proposal. 1002 words to be precise xD. from morning till now.

the worst thing about this week was, i spend $40 on food withiin 9 days. my appetite is getting bigger and bigger. what to do? i love food.

still have some more homework not done yet. lots of projects. panda eye getting worse. think im going etude house to shop for some thing to 'disappear' my panda eye...

HATE TIGER! HUMAN TIGER! *ROAR*

another outing...

2010-07-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

yeah, surprised i came to post?
im surprised myself too. maybe its because im happy today.
why am i happy? because i went to watch ECLIPSE today morning!! with rachel, kardya, HS, wee siang and gordon at DB's cathay.
super damn nice! fans of twilight saga book shoud really go watch it! really worth the money! it was way better than new moon. new moon is just a bore. i love all the fighting scenes. so nice! so real! so exciting!
anticipating for breaking dawn. need to wait for another one more year plus. was said to come out by next year november......november. can u believe it? =.= i still have to wait sooo long.
ah, gonna find eclipse online and watch it again :D
quite interested in watching ' blood pledge ' also. a horror movie. saw the trailer today. quite nice.
because its youth day today, all the youths came out. plaza sing was so packed. dont even have seat to eat lunch. so in the end went to kopitiam. its also very packed. but managed to find 6 seats for all of us.
ate korean cuisine! nice.
went to etude house after lunch. kardya bought her head band and they gave her a free gift. it was an angel pen! so nice! so kardya gave it to me in the end xD.
we were 10mins late for lecture in the end.
had fun today!
photos are up =D

that's all guys =D

2010-07-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

back again. hello.
this week was, screwed?
totally screwed.
and seriously pissed by some things.
got back almost all my results. ITB was the worst. pian pian test me on excel....
FOM was the best so far...
POA and econs got the same marks....... call it unlucky or what.
DBE! 气死我. free rider got the highest. really dont know what the hell is wrong with that teacher. our PTN somemore! he's not in the right mind. and he's the only one not in the right mind. life's never fair. it would nv be.
projects are pilling up. higher and even higher.
looking at my results, not very happy. except for some.
nevertheless, life's up and down. have to overcome it. and will overcome it.

hmmm, so... by right, mummy say she's bringing me to shanghai world expo. but now, she say dont want. she's going there herself. damn. then say bringing me to japan. quite happy. but now, she say going taiwan. dont know where will the next place be...
i will be so happy if im going taiwan.

yesterday went for cca. watched 2012 for the second time. to me, its just a movie created out of imagination. yes it is, but it will never happen to us on that day. and to me, the saying that the world will end at 21st dec 2012 is total rubbish. and the worst is, are you saying that the world will end 2 days after my 19th birthday? no thanks! the mayan calender? i dont believe in such things.

ok, only one photo this week. lazy to upload the rest.

enjoy peeps!

2010-06-23T20:59:00.003+08:00

hello hello! im back from genting! photos are up =))

mummy

first day! Awana Hotel!

chin swee temple, if im not wrong.

they say the temple very 'ling'

look at my cute little bro! he's reading newspaper!!!

see all those clouds? i cant see a single shit. we're riding in the clouds.

third day. we're going back

its my fourth time to genting. and everytime i go there, there will always be something new. and i will always try something new. like this time in the theme park, i tried the rocket thingy whereby this thing brings u high up and then drops you vertically down at high speed. i can feel my butt is off the seat alr. and my heart is thumping like crazy. and that will be the first and the last time im gonna play that thing.

that's all guys =) school's starting soon~~

2010-06-18T20:12:00.003+08:00

hello everyone! been enjoying your holiday ?

i hope you do!
this shall be the last post before i set off to malaysia genting... yes, again.
looks like i will be travelling a lot this year. This would be the first trip this year. Followed by another in august to pulau tioman with my cca people. And mummy say she will bring me to see the SHANG HAI WORLD EXPO in september! This would be the one im looking forward to the most. In the case that she will not break her promise :) And daddy say he will bring the whole family to TAIWAN TAIPEI end of the year!!!! muahahhahaha~~~ Im so damn looking forward to all of it!!!
The next place i wish to go is actually Sanya,china. It's a very very very beautiful island located at HaiNan. It is rougly on the same altitude as Hawaii. This island is so remoted. And therefore, it is known as 天涯海角 :) (yes, i actually do research on it)

The second next place i wish to go is Korea. Im a fan of K-POP. I love every single bits of Korea especially their language. So, hmmm, yes, i would really love to go there. I will definitely try every single NICE AND DELICIOUS CUISINE in korea especially their 路边摊 :) i dont mind spending all my money on food because im a big fan of FOOD!

The third place i widh to go would be Japan~ Ask me why? You should know why :) Who dont wish to go Japan?~

More clothes i bought~~ not me actually. i choose and mummy pay.

it's made of sheer :)

loves teddy! (and i just changed my hp teddy to another teddy!)

of course not forgetting my fav DIOR! Miss Dior Cherie perfume :)))) 100ml. really loves the smell

the smaller version of Miss Dior Cherie. Bought last year on Cathay Pacific. 5ml.

today i happen to came across the video of Dior's fashion show being held in ShangHai earlier this year i think. I really adores and admires how they mix and match every single outfit, be it dresses or T-shirts. Every model wore out a different style although they have exactly the same manicured and painted nails and the same hairstyle. Even though the handbags and the shoes worn by the models were around the same design, but they brings out different feelings and u can feel that the whole outfit was fantastic without even a single fault. The combinations were perfect.

rachel brought this very cute no-degree specs to school today.

because her right eye is just very teeny weeny bit swollen. she use it to cover her eye, hoping no one will stare at her in the MRT. LOL! i cant even notice that swollen part!

and yes, me and HS went to collect our photo this afternoon :)) this is the soft copy they gave us! SO NICE!

ok that's all guys.

hope that i have fun in genting :)

bye.

2010-06-14T20:42:00.001+08:00

woohoo~ im back again!

Today went to bugis for GSS with kardya HS and rachel.! noot really a GSS coz bugis's things are always so cheap. Didn't bought a lot of shirts though. Not many outfits really interest me though. So i just bought 2 today. Not much hurh ... I'll buy more next time.

So i'll tell my story while posting up my photos =D

ate lunch at yoshinoya before we begin our spree~

beautiful wall

HS's potato set meal !

we went to take neoprint in bugis junction after all that shopping. It was REALLY NICE! BUT! we accidentally pressed the 'one photo only' button! and only ONE DAMN PHOTO CAME OUT! ONE DAMN PIECE! MONEY WASTED!

this was the MISTAKE we made! see it? one damn piece of photo =.= so we decide to scan and print out 3 more at fujifilm. in the end me and HS went jp go make it. quite cheap.

SO! we decided to RETAKE another one. changed machine this time. LUCKILY, we did it correctly...

the second one was PERFECT!

below are all the things i bought during GSS~~

bought few days ago and i wore it today!

below these 2 are bought today.

this hoodie! each of us bought one of it!=D

that's all for today peeps =D

will be going malaysia from saturday till tuesday! :))

happy holiday!

2010-06-12T00:02:00.001+08:00

yo guys! I"M BACK!!!

I'm back from this exam week!! And it's offcially HOLIDAY for me now!! wahahaha......
Had POA, economics and ITB exam this week. I think the best was econs. I'm so starting to love econs. And please econs, please let my love for you to continue ! ewwkk... sounds wrong.. haha!
And POA, what can i say about you? I thought u were the best among all the modules im taking. But you proved me WRONG. I'm quite disappointed that u don't friend me anymore! And i'm starting to hate you... Sorry but i have to break up with you soon and find econs to be my best partner now :(
ITB! You are always the same. You didn't surprise me nor did you NOT surprised me. You are always you... Always giving me SO MUCH trouble and headache. ITB! Make my life simpler please. If not im gonna continue hating you. I still hate you. I still do. Believe me, unless u make life simpler, i will continue to hate you. So, the choice is yours. Want me to hate you or love you? You don't wish to be hate, do you?

Wow, can't believe that I'm actually talking to my modules!

Makes me feel better though...

So well, today was cca! Astronomy!
Went to IMM with kardya, HS, rachel and cherly today - for dinner, at BK!
So nice yummyyyyy.... i wish that life can be filled with the most delicious food from all over the world......
Then we went back school for cca. Liu hao followed us today for cca. He love it. Believe me, he really do.
Was quite fun. AND WARM! HOT!!!
Think only saw saturn tonight as the sky is not so clear today. Those stupid clouds were blocking all the stars! DAMN SAD! But nevertheless, it was fun.
Left at 10.30pm. Reached home ard 11.15. Damn tired although i woke up at 11.30am today.
Well, going shopping with kar, HS and rachel on monday! So looking forward to it !! GSS~~
Photos are up :)

my flash light's too bright!

that's all for this week peeps. dont have much photos though :( thses are all taken today.

enjoy your holiday guys! i'll see you soon :)

oh yea and, im re-watching 仙剑奇侠传 for the 4th time alr! everytime it makes me cry so much! ITS REALLY TOO NICE!!

2010-06-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

yay peeps! im finally back again! :)

this week was a long long week...
i shall start talking from monday onwards.

Monday
Woke up in the morning and found my super cute brother sitting on the sofa staring at his toes. I thought to myself "why's he still not going to school?".
So i asked him why. He replied " ni stupid ar. holiday mah." And i was like, wow, holiday, yes school holiday, for him, but not for me. Was quite disappointed. So i gave a peck on his cute little cheek... and he said 'good morning jiejie'..... SO CUTE! sometimes SO IRRITATING! So i went to school after that. In school, liuhao bought this 九阴真经 book to school but inside it was BLANK! But it's super CUTE can!

Tuesday

Tuesday! My brother is STILL having holiday. For one month though. HAIS! Their JUNE HOLIDAY! Our HELL DAY! I was angry that he was having holiday. So when he came into my room in the morning, i smacked his butt....... and he was like, ' 臭 jiejie' .... wahaha....he's angry alr !!!!

During DBE lesson, we were being tasked to debate on some stupid stuffs... hate it... Then suddenly liuhao asked me which china guy 明星 i like. So i told him i like 黄晓明. :) and he asked me which taiwan guy 明星 i like. So i told him i like 贺军翔. :) And so he went to goggle his photo for me. LOL! Then he asked me if i like 林明道. And i said yes i like him! wahahaha! And then he asked me who else i like. So i told him i also like 蓝正龙. :) And so he went to goggle his photo for me again! LOL! It's quite a funny conversation though, so i decided to post it here. :)

Wednesday

Wednesday was one unlucky day. Lecture was supposed to start at 9am. But i woke up at 8.30am! omg=.= because i set the wrong alarm timing. BOTH MY HP AND MY CLOCK! So when i woke up i was like, OH MY GOD! SEE THE TIME NOW IIM SO GONNA BE LATE FOR SCHOOL! And im so awake all of a sudden. Sms-ed rachel that im gonna be late. Didn't brush my teeth, didn't comb my hair, didnt drink my milk, but yes, i washed my face and ran out of my house. Reached MRT within 5 mins. 8.40am. Managed to get a seat. Reached dover at 9am SHARP! Went down of the MRT. MEIYING IS STILL WAITING FOR CHRISTINA! heng ar! At least there's someone to be late with. Reached lecture hall at 9.10am! Lecture started when we settled down. HENG AR! rachel HS and kardya still thought i took a cab to school because i reached school damn fast. It WAS pretty fast though. Then xueling asked me ' jiaxin ar, why ur hair today so messy'. LOL. So i took a comb and clorets from HS. She has everything :) To comb my hair and to freshen my mouth.

Bought chocolate milk after lecture. Too sweet. But still very nice :) Finally got to drink my milk....
And liuhao taught me how to do the rubber band magic trick! wahahaa....

Thursday
Thursday! Sat MRT with mummy. She managed to get us both a seat but HS was left standing in front of us :( she didnt know that woman sitting me was my mum and she was thinking why am i always talking to that woman beside me. LOL. And my mum was like 'The girl standing in front of u is wearing a SP shirt. You got this shirt?' (meaning HS). So i told her i have this shirt and that the girl is my friend! She's so shock. I dont know why.
Managed to get down the MRT with HS behind me. and suddenly i spotted liuhao standing beside the staircase way and i was wondering who he's waiting for. When i got down he told me ' 我刚才一直叫你的名字不过你没听见。别人还以为我是个神经病。' LOL! he's DAMN funny can!
Had our BC grammar CA2 exam. Quite a stupid test. They treat us as if we were grammar idiots. Released early because we finished our test early. Had a 1hr 45 min break. shiong. can eat slow slow....
In lecture hall, me kardya xueling meiying and christina was suddenly talking about movies. Ghost movies. So i told them 'drag me to hell' was very nice. And all of them were like 'YAHHHHHHHHH' until so loud~~~ we continued to talk about movies and lots of crap and laughed like nobody's business... Then meiying suddenly said that she once watched a indian ghost movie and she can't sleep for the whole night. Halfway during the movie those people still go dance and sing. (you should know how....) and we were laughing our lungs out. And kardya did some stupid funny actions which makes me laugh even harder and crazier..... my eyes ended up tearing and my stomach ended up paining....

Friday
Today was okay... Only that my fridge ran out of milk.. So i bought a packet of ORIGINAL HL milk from school. NICE!
ITB lesson was.... fun?serious?different?lame?funny?all of the above?
The teacher brought us to this SUPER NICE AND COOL CLASSROOM WHICH WE WERE DYING TO ENTER EVER SINCE THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL XDDDD
me and kardya were like some kind of lunatics, running into the classroom and chosing the best spot to sit at! wahahaha..
and the rolling the chairs were SO COOL that we roll round and round for the next 3 mins or so... we were acting as if we didn't see a roller chair in our entire life before. And were acting like some kind of DAMN EXCITED small kid. HAHA~~
Finally had my stewed chicken bento box for lunch! Finished every single bit of it! 8 people squeezing in a six seater table eating our delicious lunch and talking about silly stuffs in hilltop lib.
Had our FOM grp presentation after that. Was still okay.!
Home sweet home!

photos are up alr. :)

liu hao's jiu yin zhen jing! :)

THIS IS THE VERY NICE ROOM IM TALKING ABOUT!

took this photo of kardya a few weeks ago. she's taking the opposite direction.

did u see what advertisement is this? CONDOM! inside the MRT....my god=.=

took this photo on monday i think.. wee siang and kardya

took this two photo on thursday morning i think..the dim rays of sun rise.

took this 2 photo last october during o lvl period. its also the dim rays of sun rise. compare the difference...

and i happen to come across some photos taken last year november during my holiday to bali. really miss those days...

yes, it's a night club in bali hard rock hotel :)

that's all for this week. all the best for MST next week. bye peeps :) hopefully i will be back very soon again. and hopefully it would be holiday by the time i come back again. and hopefully i can finally go for my GSS shopping spree when i come back again! :)

2010-05-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

hello peeps~ i'm back from this week!

was quite sick this week. yes, again. and this time was worse than the last time.
last time was like one week ago. stupid weather.
fever highest record : 39.9 ! i thought i was going to die.
tuesday went to school like a dead person. no choice because i have DBE presentation. doctor gave me 2 days mc but i threw it away.
vomitted during mid-lesson. gastric juice. it burns my throat. really feel like dying at that time. but no choice, i have to 忍!
felt much better on wednesday. fever finally went down.
am feeling very very much better today.

went to cut my hair on sunday. shoulder length now. last time was at waist. heart pain....... rachel also cut her hair. shorter than mine even......

photos are up =DDD

that's all guys :)

happy vesak day!

2010-05-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

hello peeps! im back from the LONG WEEK~~

quite happy today. just came back from cca. ASTRONOMY~~
it was damn fun!
I SAW THE STARS OF SAGGITAURUS AND LEO!!! I ALSO SAW MARS AND THE TWO BRIGHTEST STAR IN THE NIGHT SKY!!!! ALL WITH NAKED EYES!!! AND I ALSO SAW SATURN WITH A TELESCOPE!!! WAHAHAHAHA .... SATURN WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN NICE!!! OMGGGGGG~~~~~
=D

monday! we celebrated birthday for christina and our 3 facils=D jiashun,shirley and ruijie.
it was a SURPRISE for them.. haha...
photos are up:D

i made this card for christina. they are REAL FOLDED stars.

jiashun

ruijie and shirley

christina.

rachel me kardya HS petrina

xueling and meiying

continued on 22/5 saturday...

thinking back, i was still having holiday 5 weeks ago. everythings seems so different compared to now. new friends came along the way.
however some new friends are just not 'mine'. meaning, i just dont have the fate to be REAL friends with them. i just know them by their names and faces and they just know me by my name and face. and these are the people i met at work. we are just not fated to be REAL friends. maybe a 'hi' and a 'bye' would be good enough. or even a few sentences of conversation would be more than enough.

thinking back, 5 months ago, i was still overseas, just finished my o level, so happy at that time, no worries about homework, no worries about anything related to studies. im a freeman at that time. all i can think of was play play and play. went to 3 different countries. (think hong kong and china is not related) bali,hongkong and china. i still rmb i came back on my own from hongkong and china coz sis went off. in hongkong airport, im like any other tourist, free and easy. im their tourist. i feel good. i feel happy. that im alone. no one is bothering me. i can go wherever i like and do whatever i want. no one's gonna care at that time. because i was all alone, in another country, with no one ard me. it was the first time im leaving the embrace of my family. and i can feel that, i've grown up. i spent 3 whole hours in the airport, walking ard not knowing exactly where im going, but i dont care because i know the time is mine now. without any destination in mind, i saw starbucks and settled down with a cup of cappucino in hand. it felt really great. after 3 hrs waiting, i finally settled down in the airplane of cathay pacific. and off i go, back to my country, back into the embrace of my family, back to where i belong. and that marks the end of the whole overseas journey. the first time on my own, in another unfamiliar country.

and now, im in a new environment, with lots of new and wonderful friends around me. im contented. =D and now, new challenges awaits me. new targets waiting for me. everything new is waiting for me! and im going to achieve it all!

more photos =D

more photos ....... to be continued.

2010-05-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

im back from the week. tired. worn out. almost dead.

ytd was the worst. went to cca. astronomy. we were playing stupid and retarded games for almost 2 hrss. wtf. pass the msg in the dark? =.=

sweating like a mother cow. omg. that was really devastating.
but finally they brought us to air-corn room and told us about stars and galaxy. that was the BEST part. ended at 10. reached home ard 10.45. 3/4 dead.
photos are up! DAC01❤

there's a ghost behind

i really love this photo!!!

that's all peeps =)

2010-05-05T20:03:00.002+08:00

im back with blogging!
was too lazy to blog for the past few weeks.
main reason is, i love my last post.
so anyway, school started last month 19th.
met new friends and all that, u know...
adapting to the new environment and studying methods all that, u know...
so, was pretty okay.
but i still prefered secondary school life. poly life makes u a bit, slack i can say? i dont like.
i miss secondary school life where we have test almost every week. it makes u get all worked up and all. but it's better than doing nothing all week, except for some tutorials whereby u can finish it within a few hours.
but well, since i chose poly, i must make do with it.
so erm, joined 2 CCAs. student exchange club and astronomy club. both sounds good hurh..
one whereby u can see stars. one whereby u can meet people from other countries. sounds boring to some but, not boring for me.
still considering whether or not to quit my job in USS. will be a bit busy for the next few weeks. 3 projects in hand now.
overall, poly is okay... but i hate squeezing in trains every single day.
people push you. you lose your balance. u have to squeeze your way out the train when you reached your station. u have to wait for another train if the first train is seriously packed.
and most of all, i hate climbing mountain everyday. i hate waiting for the super slow lift in our school. and i hate thinking about what to wear the next day. but......习惯就好......
so well, mother's day on saturday and my mum's birthday is also on sat! so one present will be enough instead of two! haha! still pondering what to buy. flowers? chocolate? cake? or a hand-made stuff? ideas, anyone????

how i wish we were two years back then...

2010-04-16T22:23:00.001+08:00

Hi all. Freshman orientation just ended yesterday. It was a 4 day event at SB.
Went with yongzhi and jos on the first day. We were then seperated to our own course. It was quite weird... We dont know each other in our own class... So there was silence all the way....
But after some games and some communication, we became more 'open'. We started talking, exchanging hp no.
The games on the first day was lame and was boring.
Went home alone after first day orientation. And oh, my class facils were jia shun and shirley!

Second day was the amazing race and principal's address etc... Went with yong zhi again. AND I MET AIPOH AT MRT STATION!!!!!!! I MISS YOU MAN!!!!!! (I actually met a lot of current friends and primary school friends in sp.)
We sat in the auditorium hall for like 1hr+ before someone finally started talking. Me and rachel were like dozing off.... The talk finally ended at 10.30am. Went to lunch straight away. I know it's super early but who cares! Poly food is indeed more ex than sec school food.
Amazing race started around 1pm. Quite fun but hate the running part. Finished everything around 3.30pm. Went home with huisheng after that. Huisheng was yongzhi's primary school friend! Haha! She also live near pioneer.

Third day was SPICE training so need to bring lappy. Met up with huisheng at pioneer then went to school tgt. Then we met up with the rest of the girls in our class and went to MLT8 tgt.
SPICE training was damn boring lah......
We dont even bother to listen what the trainer was saying. We just did our own things on pc.
Less than one hour later, some of the people had alr off their lappy.
Went to lunch at ard 12pm+ in koufu. And i saw the once super-guai-and-somehow-nerd lionel turning into a totally different person with a left piercing on his ear. WOW! I somehow chua tio.
After lunch we sat in a classroom and waited for our things we need for next day's flag day. Met our PT also. He look like some IT-geek who is somehow quite blur. But he's our lectural AND PT.
Went home with huisheng again.

Fourth day was SP Flag Day!!! Our class were allocated to the east. So no choice, we have to go pasir ris. I know it's damn far.
Met up with huisheng again at pioneer. We were supposed to meet meiying and christina at jurong east in the first cabin but they missed our train because meiying didn't read my SMS!!! So me and huisheng alighted at city hall to meet rachel and board the next next train which meiying and christina were in. So ma fan right....
Reached pasir ris. Me and rachel walked around e-hub and downtown east but was chased away by a security guard. Damn=.=
So we went a bus stop next to Hai Sing Catholic School. Only collected less than 10 pathetic coins there. The most shocking thing was one female bus driver actually stop and gave us the donation! It was a BUS NO.6 DRIVER!!! She's so cool lah.....
We then walked to a dont-know-what place. It was like a market with a lot of uncles and aunties. At least we collected more coins there because the people there were more 'auto'. We dont need to go up to them. They came up to us. Haha! Ate at a small coffee shop then went back to whitesands talking about K-pop all the way! I finallly found some friends who love K-pop!
Me rachel huisheng kardya pacrina walked around the shopping centre and took 2 pathetic photos in the toilet =.=
We walked in Watts In selling bracelet and stuffs like that annd spent half hour there. Huisheng bought a pair of ear rings.
Went back sp at around 3.30pm. Counted our money. I only collected a pathetic sum of $7.70 =.= rachel meiying christina also about the same as me! haha! Me and rachel the most pathetic ones! HAHA!
Went back home alone.!

Today's jwss speech day!
Should be meeting yongqiang 12pm at jp today. I need to pass him his belated 2-years christmas present. But he was late because he almost forgot! pro....
Reached at 12.30pm. He went to buy movie tickets then we went to kopitiam eat.
Eat finish went to arcade play game =.=
I dont really go to arcade so i was a bit the blur....
Went to play a machine game then suddenly got a lao uncle busybosy come 'cou re nao' play with us =.=
2pm went inside movie theatre. Watched Date Night. Quite a funny and somehow 'dirty' show. But nice.
yq went to town and i went back school meet sil for speech day.
Boring. lol. Came back home after speech day.
That's all for this week! Bye peeps!

2010-04-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

Isn't it a miracle? I came to post again!
Went to work today and yesterday.
Yesterday went with sil. Met bryant at outrum park and he was supposed to meet roy at mcdonalds but he was late and in the end roy finished his breakfast himself. Sil and bryant finished their breakfast on the staff bus. Nice hurh...
Only 4 person was working at FGM yesterday. Sahrin was there to help out too and i really love him there!! He is so damn nice lah. But he's only there for one pathetic day.
There was a little short of people yesterday but we managed everything.
I left at 6pm. Only jun lin was left to do closing yesterday! Imagine yourself washing 4 damn big juice machine and 3 damn complicated slush machine where u need to dismantle every single parts out and then put it back in. Dont forget mopping the floor and stocking things up. You will die.

Today went on myself. Met bai xiang at harbour front. He overslept and he's late for work so i told him no need wait for me when he's finished changing. 5 people working at FGM today so it's still okay.
Today i'm like training my muscle=.= carry those stupid tray filled with juice bottles here and there. Pushing that pathetic trolley up and down the slope. How stupid is that.
Me and yuwei doing closing today. Do until almost 8pm. Went back goldilocks to tap out and was tripped in the kitchen. Henry baixiang weijie junlin bryant all chua tio and started laughing. One was watching behind me and 4 in front me. Came home alone after that! Tomorrow is orientation AHAHAHAH!!!

2010-04-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

Yes i know. I'm finally posting after so many weeks.
Bought my new laptop. Fujitsu.
These few weeks was working and working. Although my working schedule is not to tight, but it's tiring. Was sick the whole of last week. Bad sore throat and cough with fever. Couldn't make it to work.
Yesterday im finally back to work with full recovery.
Went to work with sil and weijie. We ended up eating in take5 with arina when we reached there. Late for 5 mins.
Went lunch with weijie at 2pm. Ended up watching channel 5 wheel of fortune with weijie bryant and baixiang.
3pm we went back. Suprisingly at around 3.30pm, there's so many people buying juices and juices from our juice bar. And the thing was that only me, valarie and yuwei was there. Yuwei was the cashier so she can't help much with the juices. Valarie was busy cutting carrot so she had to stop what she was doing and do the juices.
One word. BUSY! Busy until i shou mang jiao luan. Eddie came after that so it was okay after all but still super busy.
The crowd dispersed after 5pm. Only me and weijie was doing closing. Do from 6pm until 7.30pm. Went home with sil after that.

I want to quit! You can say it's fun working in USS but you must see who are you working with, who are those around you and how u feel about them. For me, i dont feel good working there. I seriously dont feel good. Instead of anticipation, i always go work full of dreadfulness. Thinking back about my first job, which was my previous job, although it's a job which can't even be compared to my current one, be it salary or welfare, at least i feel happy going there... 加油！

2010-03-24T15:52:00.000+08:00

good afternoon everyone!
no work today! no work tomorrow! no work friday!
yesterday went to work for a JP morgan event in USS. buffet!
met jun xiong and yu wei at bus station. then we went to loui's pizza.
and they gave us this very cool t-shirt! people will thought u are some kind of manager when u wear it ! =/
and the first thing we did is eat ice-cream.
next thing we did is to carry some stupid damn heavy boxes containing all thoes damn utensils which made my arm ache like nobody's business.
trolley saved my precious arm!
start setting up utensils from 4pm to 6.20pm
went for our half hour break. food sucks yesterday.
went back at 7pm. xiang jun and i were assigned to the pop-corn booth which no one came. so we have nothing to do. i only topped up the pop-corns once. that's all. and we ate lots of pop-corns. ever tasted apple flavour ones?
went in to loui's pizza at 8pm because there's really nothing better to do.
we ended up drinking coke in the kitchen.
9.30pm. we went to take5 canteen watch tv.
10pm. pack-up. there's loads of left-over food!!
there's a girl who took 2 sussages for me before it's all gone.
so we brought back the unused utensils to the storeroom.
me and junxiong went for a last round to make sure everything is already kept.
after that jun xiong, alya and i went to find din to get back our ezlink cards. we have to go home! it was 11pm by that time.
we ended up eating cakes and desserts. alya took home 2 packets of cakes.=.=
11.30pm. alya, junxiong and i took the staff bus home. i went west. they went north.
uncle drop me off jurong point and daddy pick me up from there.
it was already 1am when i reach home!
it was a long day.

2010-03-10T11:49:00.000+08:00

yes blog!
yesterday went to universal studio to buy tickets with silvana and weijie! for only $10! for staff!
but! we dont know how to get there =.= so we ask around. another lady followed us too.
THEN! the most amazing thing happened! that person we asked, HE DROVE GOLF CART(which is only for VIP) AND BROUGHT US THERE!
in the end casual staff can only buy 1 ticket. we thought can buy 2 tickets. =.=
bo bian. silvana and me gave up our tickets to her mum.
so we walked around festive walk and found the casino!
took photos and took mono rail back to vivio city.
sat at coffee bean drink coffee and use wifi.
arina and kathrine came. then we walked around vivo and went home!

Photos by: Silvana Toh

2010-02-21T10:21:00.000+08:00

Thursday 18Feb

sil and me started our first day of work on the 17th. working in universal studio. it was okay.
went to watch movie on thur with sil, colin and weijie.
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief!
it was nice!
went to eat mac after that and went for our typhoid injection required by our working place.
it was scary. weijie went in with sil and colin went in with me. pain!
so after all that, we went back to school. colin got his frisbee. the three of us went to find teachers!
so that's all for thur!

Friday 19Feb

sil and me went for our food and hygiene course with weijie super early in the morning.
we passed!
after that we met colin at interchange and went to marina square for a birthday celebration.

that's all!

2010-02-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! 新年快乐！
its 初二 today.
collected some hong baos'. quite a sum.
starting my new work on wednesday at sentosa resort world with silvana.
cool, isn't it?

my dad's best friend passed away in a tragic car crash in december last year - right on the spot.
we went to visit his wife and children today - our very close friend.
the wife still does not seem to be recovered by the shock.
my parents had visited twice since the incident.
she's still tearing out of control, once or twice.
i was saddened. i wanted to cry. i can feel the sorrow. i can.
there was nothing more we can say to make her feel better. we know.
but still, she acted strong. she wants to overcome it. but it really takes time.
we are willing to help them within our limits, unconditionally.
and here, may god bless and help them overcome this great obstacle which just struck them without giving them any time to prepare for it.
Only time can heal all pains.

with this little story i shared, everyone, please cherish what u have now before it is too late to do so.
you would not know what may happen to you the next second. so most importantly, cherish yourself.
you can't underestimate life.

2010-01-12T11:20:00.002+08:00

well, first of all, let me wish everyone a happy new year.
'O' level results was released yesterday afternoon.
not very happy with my results. but satisfied that i am qualified for both jc and poly.
better than i thought. maybe?
didnt expect a distinction for my combined humanities.
finally got a distinction for my chinese. finally. really worth retaking.
and a distinction for my maths.
the rest, almost all, just one more grade to distinction.
glad that i can hit a 'B' for english.
well, the future is mine!

REPLY TO XUEXUN:

now, the thing is not thinking about others whose results is worse than mine. it's about myself now. i am not being selfish. i dont care you believe it or not - it concerns the rest of your life. it concerns what you are going to do in the future. people who dont take o level seriously, i think that's really very stupid of them. my target for o level is not getting what i got now. 11 points to you is heaven. i know. but for me, i still think that it's really not enough. everyone has their own target. our target is totally different. for some people, maybe 17 points is already very good for them. maybe 15 is already very good for them. as for me, my target is to get into uni in the end. every class has their own target too. my class, it's so competitive that u cant even survive if u dont aim high. for us, it's not only to get a pass for evey subjects. it is to get a good grade. a pass in a subject is just not enough for us. so now it's not the time to pity for others who did worse than me. and i wont use this as an excuse to tell myself that i did very well. i wont. there's no limit. as long as u want something, u go achieve it and there's no limit to that - as long as u believe in yourself. as human beings we must tell ourselves that we must do our best of the best for everything and nothing has a limit. even crippled people can reach the highest point of mount everest. is there a limit? NO. so i totally disagree what u said in my tagboard. my result is my result. i dont compare it with others who got worse than me. i compare with those who got better than me and work towards it. this is me. and i hope you understand. a person can only succeed if he or she aim higher and higher but not stop in mid-path and look at others who is struggling to go the way u went and u tell yourself that u are better than those.

2009-12-25T23:58:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

i simply love christmas. it's gonna end very soon. it's christmas today, i still have to work! goddammit?!
leg pain.
work? what's the point of working when u cant even celebrate your favourite christmas day.
really feel like dying today.
work place is at expo somemore. goddammit.
it's all the way until 4thjan2010 somemore. goddammit.
i cant even stay at home on 1stjan2010 somemore. goddammit.
goddammit.
eveything is a shit today. except for justin chan, with his failed surprise for me.
according to him, he was wanting to come expo and give me a surprise since it's christmas and i have no where to celebrate. but when he was on the way, i told him that i'm already reaching red hill and that was when he realized that he failed to surprise me. so in the end, he have to take the train back. HAHA!
SURPRISE~

2009-12-19T00:33:00.009+08:00

Officially 16 today. 19 december 2009.

The most vivid memory of my secondary school life is that Secondary 2 combined UG leadership camp.
It consists of all the uniformed groups. And yes, all of them.
As far as i could remember, i was the only red cross girl and i was the only chinese girl who went.
I was panicked. What should i do? There were no one i seem to know really well. I thought i was 'dead'. But little did i know, it turns out to be totally different.
At first, it was a huge challenge. With 10 over boys surrounding you and 7 other girls whom you do not even know their names. You were being stranded alone but u have to find a way out no matter what it takes because if you don't, you would be their meat.
The biggest enemy is yourself. You have to fight off all those freaking ego you have and try to blend in with others to eventually produce some nice things out of it. If you don't, you're doomed.
For me, i did it. That very first day of the camp, as far as i could remember, i threw away the shoes of my mum's. You ask me why? I couldn't remember.Maybe it's just basically some stupid act of mine. I dont't know. But throwing away that pair of shoes really hurts - a lot.
However, that first day turns out to be a really nice one. My group is so damn united. We never left anyone out. We never said anything which hurts. We were together. That very night, we girls were in our bunks. Remember i told u, i was the only chinese girl? Well, it doesn't really matter to me anymore at that point of time. I accepted it. But looking at them, hearing them speaking in their own language (malay), i suddenly understood something. The minorities would always feel a sense of unbelonging towards the majorities. And that's what some of our malay friends felt when they're in class. I finally understood.
Maybe it's because of our skin colour. Maybe it's because of our race. Maybe it's any reason you could ever find. Maybe we tried our best to include the minorities. But there's always some thing u could never ever include them in.
Well, returning here, the second day was no much different from the first. It was basically the day for 'high elements' - my greatest fear and my greatest looking-foward-to.
I went in group with 2 other girls. And little did i know, we made a history, which not even the guys(boys) dare to. And for this little history, i'm going to keep it a secret.
The rest of the days left went in a blink of an eye. i really forgot what happened next. But this memory of the camp is the most vivid one.
A group photo of us, i'm the only red cross girl, wearing a white uniform which stands out from the crowd, standing in the middle of everyone, and proud of who i am for the first time.

Thanks everyone for your birthday wish! I really appreciate it.=)
From:(beginning from the earliest)
-Michael Wynn
-Julia
-Ebenezer
-Xue Xun (the one who's always on the dot) 12.00am
-Debbie
-Griffin
-Wen Bin
-Silvana
-Beloved Brother
-Beloved Grandma
-Li Yi
-Yong Qiang (i want another hat!)
-Chee Yin
-Jie Ren
-Mahirah
-Daniel
-Swee Sheng
-Jun Kiat
-Joycelin Ong
-Atiqah
-Justin Chan
-Jia Rong
-Melva
-Shawn Toh
-Selina
-Louis Ho
-Ong Hui Ling
-My Dentist
-Mason
-Lilian Tan
-Beloved SIS!
-Aaron
-Syahirah
-Yuan Ning
-Stephenie
-Lincoln
-Eunice
-Guo wei (the belated)
-Choo Wei (the belated)
-Jun Hong (the belated and totally out one)

It seems so little, but it's the thought that counts. Thanks everyone.

2009-12-15T11:05:00.001+08:00

yesterday was prom night at jurong safra. it was fun. memorable.
below are photos taken!

me sil claire

michelle me

me meiqi

charlene me

michael me

griffin charlene

me keyin

sil eunice

michael evelyn

me mrchian

leon me

szeling me

melva me

me jarrel sweesheng

me junliang

zhiguang me

me debbie

charlene leon nuri

me choowei

our class photo

2009-12-05T21:16:00.031+08:00

Everyone please bear with my blog.

i actually like it this way.=)

these are some of the photos sis took me to take.

BALI PHOTOS

went to bali the day straight after o level!

silvana went there also! saw her in airport when i arrived. saw her again in UBUD(BALI). sad thing is never take photo with her.

HONGKONG BEIJING HEBEI PHOTOS

sis gave me US$4500 as birthday present. told me to use these money to tour around china. i ended up buying loads of things.
camera went haywire in hongkong. photos are all in my hp.
bought a new camera in beijing. bo bian.

sis and me *i know we look totally different*

below is beijing's best shopping place

he bei is snowing when i got there.

its just the best place for snow skating.

here come the accident.

went to the middle skating platform. it's more steep there.

lose my balance and fell down. someone came to help me up.

i was going to get up when i heard soneone shout behind me 'AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!'

that person is skating a single board (people who snow skate shld know what it is.)

he bang onto us with high speed.

the pain was excruciating.

twisted my neck. the skate board bang onto my ankle. ankle went sore. and my waist was also being hit by that damn skate board.

the person who helped me up seconds ago, his ankle was being cut and blood flows out. his pants was being cut also.

DAMN! i was being carried down by their so-called ambulance.!

the person who bang on me paid me 500RMB! HAHA!

sis celebrated my birthday in advance for me before she goes off to other countries.

yes that's all for the whole trip!

things i bought!

MISS SIXTY

MNG JEANS- Made in Turkey

MNG JEANS

Louis Vuitton

Chanel

Anna Sui latest edition

Juicy Couture

Juicy Couture lastest edition

Dior Perfume. Bought on the aeroplane-TAX FREE

Includes: Miss Dior Cherie

DOLCE VITA

j'adore

MIDNIGHT POISON

Dior Addict 2

2009-11-13T10:17:00.000+08:00

right. im here finally.
im finally graduated from jwss.
last year we attended the graduation ceremony. and i told slivana. it would be us next year(means 2009). and yes, there we are. sitting at exactly where our seniors sat last year. and i suddenly dont feel like graduating anymore.
performance was nice. nearly made me cry. i swallowed then down.
photos taking is a must.
got farewell gifts from teachers. hilarious.
thanks everyone! especially 4e1 and the teachers!

o level's just 2 days away.
i will do my best.my very best.
looking forward to finish myy exam.
would be going to bali(indonesia),hong kong, beijing and tian jing.
so many things are awaiting me.
the aeroplane is waiting for me
the hotels are waiting for me.
and so many more.
tickets are already in my drawer.
what i have to do now is sit for the exam.
after exam, i would open the drawer and... ... ... you know what is next.
photos would be up after o's!

JIAYOU EVERYONE!

photos are up! Graduation photos are in facebook!

here comes today! (13 november) my last o level papertoday went to find jobs at orchard road! with michelle and silvana!
in the end we ended up playing. but still managed to secure a job.
our lunch!!!!!! NICE! Teritaki chicken(forgot how to spell)

MY JUICY COUTURE!

would be leaving singapore tomorrow! going BALI, HONGKONG, BEIJING AND TIANJING! wont be back until 5 dec!

18 november wednesday.

back from bali today. going off again tomorrow morning. coming back on 5 dec.=)